I think everyone comes to a point where they start to fall into the clichés. We all think we’re above them, that they’ll never affect us and that we don’t need anybody or any help. ( the “I can do bad all by myself” attitude). That’s a pretty unauthentic way to live but, there isn’t anybody that can stop you from feeling or thinking that way but you. You may have the high whiny nagging voice in your head saying I don’t have a talent, nobody will like me, I have no purpose, somebody out there is better than me at doing yada yada. But sure, why not think all of those things. Especially if you haven’t tried and especially because we have 9 lives to live and we have all the time in the world to wallow in our self-pity. Wrong “ain’t nobody got time for that”. I’m just tired of us individuals thinking we’re all original strugglers, like nobody before us was ever confused about life, or wondered of their purpose and talents, who failed, who cut themselves off from the world, became “cold-hearted”, who weren’t considered normal, who coloured outside of the box, who were ostracized, who were broke and tired. None one of those things matter in terms of you reaching success unless you make them matter. You can stay sad and broke all you like but until you find out that the real riches on this earth cannot be accessed through your bank account, you’re going to have a rough time finding the gold in your dirt.
The reason this is the first poetry and personal blog I’ve ever done that will make the internet is because of my tendency to doubt and undermine my abilities. My voices tell me, nobody wants to hear that, who cares, what will so and so say, nobody will like it or see it, your poems aren’t that good. This list goes on and on but then you just have to ask yourself “O.K and…??”. How does this stop me from the air I breathe on a day to day basis, the answer is it doesn’t. I am not concerned about the opinions of the people with intentions not to lift me up. That’s another thing you need keep an eye out for, look to the people around you and ask “do you even lift bro?” If not, it’s time to find you some heavyweight lifters as friends. I’m coming upon a season where I believe that when I start to let go (here comes the cliché line) and I begin to let God, opportunities I fathomed impossible are sure to become a reality. Sure many of my poems aren’t great but they aren’t anybody else’s to claim as their own either, they’re mine and I’m going to choose to share them as I see fit!
I have a passion for spoken word poetry, I have a passion for uplifting youth and I’ve only just begun. I’m a 19 year old Christian girl from T-dot, trying to explore what I love, trying to see who I can reach, trying to inspire and show people how a love for God can change your life!
Point blank: It’s not what you have or don’t have that is holding you back, it’s what you’re not doing that is.
2 thoughts on “It’s not your poems holding you back.”
Love this!!! I can relate to it all! This is the reason I started my blog as well. Kind of throwing myself and thoughts and words out there despite what the little “chatterbox” plays in my mind. Love from the Virgin Islands!
Thank you! I love the realness of your poems. Please continue to write, I’m excited to see more from your blog! God Bless! – Liz